[This will probably be the last installment of this so-called museum. It's a bit long, but it goes to show you what happens when an idea gets stuck in your head, and you want to write about it even if you don't know what you're doing with said idea. I learned an important lesson from this one: never force a story. The idea may linger in the back of your mind for a long time, but eventually you'll figure out what to do with it. Just be patient. That said, this is still a pretty interesting story about manipulation in the name of immortality.]
The room fell silent as everyone stared at
Orville Ramone. No one could believe what
he’d just said—-not in the church basement decorated with Sunday school art
projects, old ‘Seventies paneling, and yellowed nicotine stains. Not in this circle of metal folding chairs,
inhaling cigarette smoke from ten years ago and freshly brewed coffee. Not with the taste of stale doughnuts on
their tongues, powder on the fronts of their shirts and smeared on their pants
where they’d wiped their fingers.
But Orville’s words had power, and they
sparked interest in everyone’s hearts.
No one wanted to be the first to speak, but excitement thrummed in the
air, the ghost resonance of a guitar chord.
They all wanted to make his words a reality, especially Nelson Ramsey.
He thought back a month to when the doctor
had first diagnosed him as terminal. At
first he didn’t believe it. In fact, he
still didn’t believe it after he got a matching second opinion. Yet when he started feeling the debilitating
effects of his cancer, he came to know the truth. Despite a life of living healthy, eating
healthy, and leading a responsible existence, he would be dead in three months,
no matter what treatments the whitecoats put him through.
It pissed him off to think about everything
he’d missed out on out of some insane idea that if he avoided vices and ate
healthy and got enough exercise, he’d outlive everyone. Out of anger, he got drunk that night for the
first time in his life. The altered
perception felt good at the time, but when he woke up the next day, shame and
guilt convinced him to never try it again.
He poured out the remainder of the booze and hid the bottle deep in the
garbage so the trash man wouldn’t find it.
He glutted on fast food, which he found
more to his liking. He no longer cared
about getting fat; the cancer would never let him, not even if he ate like a
Roman emperor crossed with a sumo wrestler.
As he stuffed himself with Big Macs and mozzarella sticks, he wallowed
in all of the things he’d never get to do.
His life meant nothing. His sole
purpose on earth consisted of waiting to die.
Now he would never get to leave his mark on
the world. His job always prevented him
from starting a family, so he couldn’t even pass on his DNA. Maybe that was for the best, though. As far as he could tell, this cancer came
from genetics. His own father had gotten
it at a young age, but everyone figured it was because he smoked two packs a
day.
Nelson didn’t have many friends, just some
co-workers he sometimes hung out with.
As a result he didn’t have anyone to talk to, not until he started
attending this group therapy.
Orville had cancer in his lungs, just like
Nelson. Jeff Feldman had AIDS. Tonya Slattery had breast cancer. Al Garton had a tumor eating away at his
brain. And Barton Malek, despite being
only twenty, had MS and needed to get around with a walker.
Every Tuesday and Thursday at seven in the
evening, Nelson saw these people. He
shared their misery and complaints. He
knew them intimately, but to hear such a surprising suggestion from
Orville? That knocked everyone for a
loop.
“Think about it,” Orville continued. “We’re all toast anyway. Why not go out in a blaze of glory?”
“What about God?” Barton asked. “I’ve been doing a good job of being
good. I don’t want to mess it all up in
the eleventh hour and wind up in Hell.”
Orville snorted. “You really believe that? That God’s watching over us? Come on, kid.
Look at yourself. You barely had
time to live. If He’s out there, He did
this to you. I say fuck Him.”
“But the devil—-“
“I don’t want to get into a discussion on
the problem of evil,” Tonya said. No
surprise, as she was a philosophy professor before she retired. “I’m more interested in the problem of us.”
“Right now, our lives are meaningless,”
Orville said. “Nothing we do from now
till the moment we die will make a jot of difference in the big picture. Don’t you guys want to change the world? Don’t you want to leave a mark for all to
see, proving that at one time, we did indeed exist?”
Those were the words that convinced
Nelson. He cleared his throat and
spoke: “I agree. I’m sick of this terrible hand I’ve been
dealt. I don’t want to go quietly into
the night. I want to strike back. When I go, I wouldn’t mind taking a few of
the bastards with me.”
Al looked at him, his eyes freshly cracked
eggs. “Hold on. I’m all about making some symbolic gesture,
like that monk who torched himself to protest ‘Nam, but killing people? Actually murdering them? That sounds . . . you know.”
Orville shrugged. “Why not?
Why do they get to stay here and we get to die? What’s fair about that?”
“Besides,” Nelson said, thinking of Al’s
jaundiced, watery eyes, “you know what they say about omelets.”
Orville nodded, and Tonya asked, “You
didn’t just bring this out of the blue.
You’ve clearly been thinking a lot about this. Do you have a target in mind?”
“Target?”
Al pshawed. “What are we,
terrorists?”
“No,” Orville said. “We’re artists. Our subject is humanity, and if we can
somehow expose people to their own hypocrisy before we go out, maybe our lives
will have been worth it.”
“So we’re rebels?” Barton asked.
“Suicide bombers, more like,” Al said. He shook his head. “I can’t get into that.”
“You didn’t answer my question,” Tonya
said. “What’s our target?”
Orville cast his gaze over each face before
him, as if gauging everyone’s trustworthiness.
Finally, after considerable judgment, he said, “I was thinking about the
city post office.”
For a moment, the room remained silent as
everyone tried processing this. Their
brains came to the same conclusion at the same time, and everyone broke out
into laughter . . . all except for Jeff.
He’d kept quiet throughout this conversation, but now his lesion-pocked
face leaned forward with excitement.
“No. Dude. This is actually brilliant.”
“Nobody uses snail mail anymore,” Al
said. “It’s all email now.”
“That’s where you’re wrong,” Orville
said. “The USPS still ships packages,
but they’re good for one other, very important thing.”
“And that is?” Al asked.
“Christmas cards. No matter how new technology gets, people
still insist on being old fashioned when it comes to sending Christmas cards.”
“And ‘tis the season,” Jeff said.
“Think of how many millions of Christmas
cards and gift packages run through the city post office during the week of
Christmas. It’s one of the central
offices, so practically all correspondence in the country passes through it.”
“So what?” Tonya asked. “So we blow up a post office. All we do is make sure a lot of families are
disappointed this season. Is my life worth
that?”
“Yes,” Orville said. “Americans don’t give two shits if they lose
their rights, but take away convenience?
It’s the end of the world. Think
about how annoyed you get when you’re stuck at a train. Or if Sears doesn’t have that Bluray player
you want. Only when people see how angry
they’re getting at nothing will they realize what kind of people they really
are. Things have to change after an
epiphany like that.”
Al snorted.
“You know what? I hate the
USPS. They’re insanely incompetent. They lose stuff all the time and won’t even
take the blame for it. And then! Then!
They have the gall to regularly raise their rates! Can you believe that?”
“Genius,” Jeff said.
Barton nodded. “I don’t have a problem with blowing up the
post office. I just don’t want to kill
anyone, that’s all.”
Orville fidgeted in his seat, his mouth
open but producing no sound.
Nelson stepped up. “There are no guarantees in life,
Barton. We can try to make this
bloodless. That’s the best we can do.”
Everyone looked up to him, even Orville. Rather than letting all parties have a vote,
Nelson made the decision for the group.
They accepted this without question.
“Well, if we’re to do this, we shouldn’t
plan it here,” Tonya said. “Anyone have
a place we can gather? Somewhere
private?”
“My workshop,” Orville said.
It was late, so they agreed to meet at
Orville’s place at six tomorrow. Jeff
joked to BYOB, but Orville said he had plenty of booze, if it came to that.
Nelson stuffed his face at White Castle
with Sliders and went home, where he dreamt of blowing up the city post
office. He marveled at the flying hunks
of brick and shards of glass, cutting down all who were unfortunate enough to
get too close. He took glee in watching
the pirouetting flames lick the sky as they consumed the lumpen mass of the
building. He laughed as others wept and
screamed and begged. He felt his own
body disintegrate in the fire.
When he woke up, his underwear stuck
uncomfortably to his crotch.
#
Orville lived in a neighborhood where there
were more boarded up windows than glass ones, where every face peered
suspiciously from porches or grungy living rooms. A dog barked constantly from a block over,
and streetlights flickered overhead, on the verge of death.
They arrived more or less at the same time. Orville greeted them all at the door and
offered each a drink. He poured various
alcohols into several glasses. One thing
Nelson noticed about the terminally ill:
very few stayed away from alcohol.
What was the point?
Orville led his guests to the basement, to
his workshop. “I already got the
blueprints to the post office, and I looked around online for some bomb
recipes. I managed to find some good
stuff—-cheap, too—-in the Anarchist’s Cookbook.
Take a look.” He waved his hand
over the bench like a game show host would to prizes you could win.
“Wow, blueprints?” Barton said. “How’d you get those?”
“The county clerk,” Orville said. “It’s not like I bribed some official or
anything like that. Who do I look like,
James Bond?”
Al shuffled through the bomb making
instructions, eyes narrow. “I can’t
believe this. These are all household
items. Is this for real?”
Orville nodded. “There’s nothing in there I have to sign
for. Nothing I need to show my ID for.”
“When do we do this?” Tonya asked. She’d picked a cigarette out of her purse,
but she only fiddled with it. When she
stopped, she held it between her index and middle fingers, as if she were
smoking it.
“People want their cards to arrive just
before Christmas. The post office is closed
for both the day itself and Christmas Eve.
So we’ll want to hit them when they’re at critical mass, on the
twenty-second.”
“Makes sense. Do we hit them before or after hours?”
“Why not during?” Nelson asked. “We need to make sure people get the message. Otherwise, why do it at all?”
“No killing people,” Barton said.
“What, blowing up a federal building on
Christmas week won’t get the attention we need?” Al asked.
“Nobody pays attention if no one gets
hurt,” Nelson said.
“Then you can be the sacrificial lamb,” Al
said. “You alone. What do you think of that? Not so interested now, are you?”
“I’d rather die in an explosion than alone
in some hospital, shitting into a stainless steel pan and having strangers give
me baths. And you should know that, Al.”
Al stared at him, his eyes suddenly
hollow. He wanted to say more, his mouth
even moved to say more, but he couldn’t find the moral strength.
“It doesn’t matter,” Barton said. “I don’t want anyone’s blood on my hands, not
even Nelson’s.”
Jeff offered a sickly smile, showing dingy
teeth too big for his receding gums.
“How about mine?”
Barton grunted. “That won’t kill me any quicker, friend.”
“Maybe we should just forget the whole
thing. It sounded like a fun thing to
think about back at Group, but things are starting to feel weird. I don’t like it.”
“No guts, no glory,” Jeff said. “I kind of like the idea of giving the world
one big fuck-you before I die. This
place has never treated me and my kind well, so I don’t give a damn. Let’s torch the post office.”
“This isn’t about revenge,” Al said. “It’s supposed to be about sending a
message.”
“Let’s all take a step back,” Orville
said. “We’re getting a little
heated. We’re thinking with
emotions. Let’s call it a night and
resume our talk tomorrow at our Thursday meeting. What do you say?”
They murmured their assent and finished
their drinks before leaving, all except Nelson.
He couldn’t stop looking at the blueprints.
“How can you reduce something as complex as
a building to a two-dimensional drawing on paper?” he asked.
“The same way the world reduces a human
being to a dying hunk of meat,” Orville said.
“No artistry.”
“It’s not right.”
“That’s what separates you from the
others,” Orville said. “You’re outraged
by this fact, and you want to do something about it.”
“They might chicken out, but I won’t. This is all I have left. I won’t even leave someone behind to mourn
me.”
“Don’t worry.” Orville touched Nelson’s shoulder and gave a
tight squeeze. “We will change the world.”
#
On Thursday, two of them did not show
up. Orville arrived first with a bag of
doughnuts, and he turned on the coffee machine and moved all the chairs into a
circle. Nelson came next and sat to the
right of Orville. Both greeted one
another amiably, but they were too nervous to say much more than small
talk. Jeff was third, and he stuffed his
mouth with doughnuts before sitting at Orville’s left.
When Tonya arrived, she looked around the
room, surprised, as if everyone there wore no clothes. She recovered quickly and took her seat,
reaching into her purse for the cigarette she would never smoke. Her hands trembled as she stuck the butt in
her mouth and closed her eyes.
“What’s wrong?” Orville asked.
“I didn’t know if you guys’d be here or not,”
she said. “Not after what happened.”
“You mean, last night at Orville’s?” Jeff
asked.
She blinked, her eyelashes long enough to
flutter in the breeze. “You haven’t
heard? About Al and Barton?”
Orville and Nelson looked at each other,
confused. Jeff shrugged.
“I got to know them pretty well,” she
continued. “They don’t really have
anyone else, you know. I mean, Al had
his wife, but they’d been separated so long he didn’t even know where she was.”
“What happened?” Orville asked.
“I didn’t know they’d both made me their
next of kin.”
“Oh.
Damn. Damn and hell.” Orville leaned back, hands against his face,
fingers pushing up his glasses to rub his eyes.
“They’re . . . ?” Jeff said no more.
Tonya nodded. As she pretended to smoke, she told them
about Barton first. Since he lived alone
with no one to look out for him, he had to go up three flights of stairs to get
to his apartment. He kept meaning to
switch to a first floor room, but he thought that would be an admission of
defeat. Besides, he liked the
exercise. He believed it kept him
strong.
The walker made things difficult. This time, he ran into too much difficulty,
and he fell backwards. He went down two
of the three flights and broke his skull open.
“That’s horrible,” Orville said.
“That’s nothing compared to Al,” Tonya
said. They all knew odd ideas had been
occurring to him for the last month as his tumor ate away at his common
sense. He thought going to the bathroom
on a dinner buffet was normal, and saying “fuck you” was just the same as
saying hi. The incidents were few and
far between, but they were starting to add up.
This time, it got into his head to walk in front of a train. No one saw it, but investigators determined
that he’d been dragged five miles before anyone noticed a thing.
“I can’t believe it,” Jeff said. “We saw them just yesterday.”
Nelson said nothing. He thought fate had smiled upon them by
removing the only two people who wanted nothing to do with their plans for the
city post office. How convenient. Now they could move ahead with no
interruptions. Now they were free to
make sure the world remembered them when they were gone.
Finally, Tonya yanked the cigarette from
her mouth and stuffed it back into her purse, among the coins and tissues and
old receipts. “I just can’t do this
anymore. When I hang out with dying
people, should I be surprised when they die?”
Frustrated, she backhanded a tear from her cheek, leaving a smudged
trail of eyeliner on her porcelain skin.
“We know how you feel,” Orville said. “I—-“
She stood, violently pushing her chair back
into the wall. “That’s the problem. I have a family who loves me, and I keep
pushing them away because they don’t understand. Meanwhile, you guys—-who do
understand—-keep dying off. Why am I
wallowing in this? I’m running out of
time. I should be spending it with those
who will stay. Those who will remember.”
“It must be nice,” Nelson said. “Having someone love you, I mean. Someone who will tell people about you when
you’re gone.”
Tonya stifled a sob. Eyes shining with regret and loss, she said,
“I’m sorry, Nelson. That’s all I can
be.”
And she left. None of them saw her again.
Orville looked at the remainder of his
group. “Do you guys want to continue?”
“With this meeting?” Jeff asked. “Nope.
We have more important things to do.”
“Let’s go to my place, then.”
#
After talking for a while over a few beers,
brainstorming, Nelson went home and made himself a sandwich. As he ate and watched a TV show he didn’t
like, he thought about notoriety. People
remembered killers. Osama bin Laden
would still be talked about a century from now.
So would Hitler, Stalin, Attila the Hun, Jack the Ripper, Timothy
McVeigh, John Wayne Gacy, and a host of others.
Why not join their ranks? A hundred
years from now, he wanted people to remember Nelson Ramey, the cancer patient
who changed it all.
He went to bed and once again had his
dreams of destruction. Of death. Of self-immolation.
Of immortality.
#
The next day Nelson blew off a doctor’s
appointment to visit with Orville and Jeff, to plan more of what they were
going to do. When Orville greeted him at
the door, Nelson smelled something funny on him, but he couldn’t quite place
it. It made him think of devils and
fire, though.
“Jeff’s already here,” Orville said. “Follow me.”
They went into the basement, where the
smell nearly batted the nose off Nelson’s face.
This time he recognized it:
sulfur and gasoline.
“It’s lucky there are three of us,” Orville
said. “I made some bombs, three of
them. After some careful thought, I came
to the conclusion that two wouldn’t be enough to completely destroy the
building.”
“We were looking at the blueprints before
you arrived,” Jeff said. “In order to
total the place, we need three bombs put in strategic places. Check it out.” He unrolled the blueprints and pointed.
“I don’t know what this means,” Nelson
said. He felt stupid for this
confession. A man with murderous,
destructive intentions should know how to read a blueprint. He regretted showing up and wanted to go
home. He wanted to forget all of this.
“It’s cool,” Jeff said. “This is the front. We need to have two bombs here.”
“Isn’t that overkill? Why not spread them out?”
“We need the most explosive power there,”
Orville said. “The most people will be
present, waiting in line or behind the counter.
Plus, it’s the store front, meaning it will take out a few bystanders
outside. Best of all, there’s a police
camera out there, pointed at the building.
It’s close enough to get the details, but not close enough to be a
danger.”
“Oh.”
Nelson thought that was sensible.
They wanted to make sure this was remembered forever, right? What was the Kennedy assassination without
the Zapruder film?
“It will also help the third bomb, which
must come through the back. Here.” Orville pointed.
“And the bombs are all set to go?” Nelson
asked.
“Put the finishing touches on last night.”
This was it. This was for real. They were really going to do this.
“We just need surveillance,” Jeff said. “Gotta’ know the busiest time to strike,
right?”
“Then we just walk the bombs in and boom?”
“I’ll put them in packages, so it’ll look
like we’re customers,” Orville said.
“I’ll take the third bomb, the one in the back. You guys get the front. We’ll synchronize our watches and
everything.”
Nelson stared at the blueprint and tried to
match it with the building in real life.
He tried to imagine what it would look like after the explosion. He tried to construct what the news anchors
would say. What history would say about
him and his compatriots.
Then, he realized that he knew he would die
on December 22. How many men knew what
their ultimate fate would be and when?
It made him feel different.
Special. No longer a part of the
herd.
“Let’s do some research then,” Orville
said. “And let’s try not to be
obvious. Remember where the camera is
and remember how paranoid people have been about federal buildings since 9/11.”
#
Orville sat in the coffee shop with Jeff,
drinking hot java and nibbling at muffins.
Both looked out the front window at the post office across the street,
trying to look engaged in newspapers instead.
They sat at different tables, since they thought it would be prudent to
not be associated with each other in public.
Somewhere behind the post office, Orville presumably did the same thing
in his own fashion.
It was the third day they’d been doing
this. Every time the numbers turned out
the same. They could do their best
damage at ten minutes past noon.
Five o’clock rolled by, and as the
government employees locked up, Nelson and Jeff abandoned their posts at the
coffee shop. They walked three blocks
down and turned a corner, where Jeff’s Camaro waited. He was the only one with a car, so
transportation duties fell to him. Well,
Orville had an old Caddy in his garage, but he told them it didn’t run. “I kept meaning to restore it to its former
glory,” he’d said. “Now? What’s the point?”
He hadn’t arrived yet, so Jeff got in
behind the wheel and Nelson called shotgun.
They waited, peering out at the city life around them. Most people rushed home from work while
others—-the early birds—-took to the streets, eager for the surprises the night
would bring.
It took a moment for Nelson to notice the
car was shifting back and forth, as if they were on a boat. When he looked over, he saw Jeff nervously
fidgeting. “What’s up?”
Jeff favored him with a pained glance,
almost like he had to go to the bathroom really bad. Finally, he said, “I killed them.”
Odd.
“Um, who?”
“Barton and Al. They weren’t accidents. Orville told me to do it, or we’d all be
screwed. But you’re not supposed to
know.”
“Oh.
I see.”
“Please don’t tell Orville. It’s just . . . I couldn’t keep it in
anymore. It hurt too much.”
“That’s all right. I understand.”
“Really?
Orville said you might not like it.
You’re not mad?”
“No.”
He was furious. Why the need for
secrets? Did Orville not think he was
worthy? “They had to go. They were too dangerous to our cause. I just wonder why he didn’t include me in
this plan.”
“Well, he said he didn’t know how strong
you were. He knew I was a mad bastard,
so he came to me. Except, I’m not that
much of a bastard, not like I thought.
Jesus, I’m crying.”
Nelson looked over in time to see Jeff rub
tears out of his eyes. He was about to
say more, but the back door opened, and Orville slid into the car.
“Let’s go back to my place.”
Jeff turned the car on and drove, steady
and tearless. Nelson started to wonder
if their conversation had actually happened or not.
#
Back at Orville’s place, they decided over
drinks that they’d take out the post office at 12:10 pm on December 22nd,
which meant they only had three days to live.
No long and drawn out conclusion in antiseptic beds, surrounded by
strangers for this crew. No, the grim
reaper acted on their terms. It
felt good to have power for once.
“But we can’t just walk in and blow the
place up,” Orville said. “We have to
leave a record of our intent behind, so they know why we did it.”
“A tape,” Jeff said. “Terrorists always send out a tape.”
“Right.
I have a camcorder. It’s
old. I haven’t used it since my kids
were little. I have an old VHS of Perfect
Strangers I wouldn’t mind taping over.
How about it?”
He gave them each a script while he searched
for his camcorder. Nelson read over his
lines and liked them. They had the right
apocalyptic tone to them.
They shot it in one go and settled down to
watch the results. Jeff spoke first, but
Nelson didn’t care too much about the performance. He was more interested in himself. The camera zoomed in on his hollow face,
sunken eyes and all. He looked so
awkward and empty. There was no glamour
in this.
“My name is Nelson Ramey, and I am
thirty-three years old. I have been
diagnosed with terminal lung cancer.
They say the wisest of men are those who know they’re dying. Maybe that’s the case. I do know that we can speak the truth without
fear of reprisal. Why not? By the time you see this, I’ll be dead.”
Nelson watched the image of himself staring
down at the script. He hated reading
aloud because he always sounded like he was reading. Not this time. He could feel his words burning off the
screen and into his soul.
“I died on December 22nd at
12:10, and I probably took someone you love with me. Why did I do this? Because you didn’t care enough. You were too wrapped up in your
trivialities. Your indulgences. Your conveniences. People died on Black Friday this year from shopping. Only in America can something like this
happen. A good deal on an HDTV flat
screen is worth more than human life.
This has got to change.”
Tacky though it may seem, Nelson felt a
chill at his own words. Did Orville know
him so well? How else could he have
written this perfect script?
“We cannot protest the human heart,” his
image continued, “no more than we can protest breathing or eating or
fucking. Terror, however, works better
than anything else. Only when you fear
for your own lives will you change your ways.
Those we sacrificed at the post office, including ourselves, are a
wake-up call, America. Become better people. Abandon your avarice. Be decent to each other. My life is my present to you. Merry Christmas.”
That last part should have seemed silly,
but Nelson knew he’d hit the right tone.
“Perfect,” Orville said.
“Aren’t you going to record something for
yourself?” Jeff asked.
“No.
There’s nothing I can add to your performances. Any more would spoil the whole thing.”
All three nodded, silent for a moment. Then, Nelson said, “So, do we just mail the
tape to the authorities?”
Jeff let out a guffaw, but Orville merely
smiled. “I think we should trust this
one to FedEx.”
#
Nelson Ramey began his last day on earth
hacking out a sizeable hunk of lung. He
woke himself up coughing, and it wasn’t the first time he’d spit out blood in
such a fashion. However, it was the
first time a piece of his insides had come out.
It rested on the cold floorboards of his bedroom, glistening in the
morning sun coming through the sparsely latticed window. He stared at the meat and wondered how this
errant piece fit into the puzzle of his body and what his lungs looked like
now. Ragged and dog-eared? Did this make him less of a person?
He picked up the lung loogey and carted it
to the bathroom. Holding the slimy
former piece of himself, he wondered if he should throw it in the trash or
flush it down the toilet, like a dead goldfish.
What did one do with something that used to be a living part of
themselves?
He coughed again and spat blood into the
sink. Then, in the mirror, he saw a
streak of blood running from the corner of his mouth to his jaw line. Coupled with his pale demeanor and hollow,
angular cheeks, he looked like a Hollywood
vampire.
Nelson wiped the crimson from his face with
the back of his hand. Then, he opened
the medicine cabinet and placed the piece of lung on a plastic tray next to the
half-dozen prescription bottles of pills that would never help him. He closed the mirror like a coffin lid and
thought that by 12:11, the lung hunk would be the only piece of him left in the
world. The rest of him would be
incinerated beyond dust.
He got a big, sloppy breakfast from Denny’s
before taking the bus to Orville’s neighborhood. Jeff’s car stood parked at the curb like a
waiting hearse. Nelson realized his last
car ride would be in a beat up, rusty Camaro.
Inside, Orville offered drinks. “But don’t get drunk. We don’t want to mess this up at the eleventh
hour.”
Eleventh hour? Nelson had heard those words recently. Why did they chill him now?
Jeff mixed a White Russian for
himself. Nelson declined. He wanted a fresh, sober mind when he left
this world.
As Orville ate a Pop Tart, he explained how
things would go down. “The explosives
are on a timer, which is synchronized with my watch. It’s important for you guys to be in the
building at 12:10 sharp. Got your
watches?” As they all looked at their
wrists, Orville said, “It’s 10:33 . . . now.”
They looked up from their watches and
glanced at one another, knowing that their remaining life could be counted in
minutes.
“Take the packages with you,” Orville
said. “Spend the rest of the morning any
way you want to. Just remember to be in
post office at 12:10.”
“What are you going to do?” Jeff asked.
“Sit around. Drink some Scotch. Look at pictures of better times.” He had an odd smile on his face when he said
this. “I want to see my kids again, but
pictures are as close as I can get.”
“You want us to pick you up, then?”
“No.”
He waved a dismissive hand. “I’ll
catch up on my own.”
Nelson did want a ride, so Jeff dropped him
off in the city. “I’m going to a strip
club,” Jeff said. “My last moments
should be spent with young, nubile bodies.”
Nelson thought that was a good idea. He’d never gone to a strip club in his life,
but he knew that Jeff meant a male strip club, which wasn’t Nelson’s thing. Instead, he went to a museum. Probably not the most inspiring way to waste
his last hour on earth, but it was better than nothing. The paintings and sculptures didn’t do
anything for him, though. What did art
amount to, anyway? Everyone dies. Things of beauty could never change that.
He grabbed an unremarkable hot dog from a
street vendor and washed it down with a tasteless diet cola. Just another meaningless exchange in his life. It would be, however, the last time he would
give anyone money.
Nelson arrived at the post office at noon
sharp. There was a long line, as
predicted, and Jeff was already in it.
They made brief eye contact before looking away. Just two strangers in line.
The last line.
Nelson saw the clock in the post office and
chuckled when he saw it was three minutes fast.
It already said 12:10. A glance
at his watch showed the truth. These
people would all die without knowing the proper time.
12:08.
He moved further up in line. An elderly man coughed wetly into a
handkerchief. A young woman chattered
ceaselessly into her cell phone. Two biddies
gossiped about the neighborhood slut.
They all moved one minute closer to death, completely unaware of how trivial
their final moments were.
12:09.
Nelson hoped everything would go in slow
motion. He wanted to see the package in
his hands bloom with flames—-a death flower—-sending his fingers off in all
directions like giant horseflies. He
wanted to feel every inch of his self-immolation. He wanted his vision to fill with fire until
his eyes evaporated in their sockets. He
wanted to see split-second desperation in all these victims’ faces as they
realized they were about to die and could do nothing about it.
He grinned, thinking this was what making a
difference in the world felt like.
His eyes locked with Jeff’s, and he was
surprised to see fear in his compatriot’s face.
How could he not feel angry, exultant, and defiant all at once?
“Hey everyone!” Nelson shouted. His heart raced as he felt the seconds tick
away to zero. “Nelson Charles Ramey says
FUCK YOU!”
12:10.
Nelson felt nothing.
#
“Holy Jesus. They did it.
They actually did it.”
Tonya stared at the footage of the city
post office exploding. She watched as TV
anchors tried to keep their composure while relating the news. She watched officials making statements about
how they were going to get the scumbags responsible. Fox News already blamed Al Qaeda.
Things calmed down later, when they started
showing footage of Jeff and Nelson giving their speeches, their reasons for
such a wanton act of murder and destruction.
No mention of Orville, though. Weird.
Weird until she saw his photo on the news
from an unrelated story. The caption
said his name was David Fischer, though, and he was wanted in connection to a
high profile bank robbery that had taken place across the city from the post
office, exactly at the same time as the explosion. He’d gotten away with 10.8 million dollars.
At first, this confused Tonya, but when she
figured it out, she wanted to cry.
Instead, she stuck the cigarette she always fiddled with into her mouth
and lit it. She inhaled deeply and blew
a plume of smoke up to the ceiling.
Then, it dissipated and was gone.
THE END
