Monday, January 31, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #458: BE CONSISTENT

 "Oh dear God. Please don't be a serious rant about how we're all getting fucked by corporations. Please be one of the funny columns. I need a laugh before bed."


Don't worry. Tonight's GF won't be serious. It's going to be about a childhood memory that is, I think, funny and pretty gross, too.


I don't remember much about this man. Except for one thing, which we're going to get to. I think he was related to someone a relative of mine married. I also remember his name, but I won't mention it here. I'm being vague because I'm almost certain this is a story he wouldn't want me to tell. I'm not even sure he's still alive, but why take the chance?


I actually learned something valuable from him, something I practice every day, but when he departed this wisdom to me, it wasn't what I immediately remembered. That thing that I still remember. We're getting to that.


I don't recall how young I was. Maybe ten? I know I hadn't hit my growth spurt yet. It was a family reunion for a family I was related to by marriage (probably), and it was the first time I met most of them. Anyway, after he and I and someone else (sorry, I'm in protect-the-innocent mode for this one) finished up going fishing, we returned to civilization and I had to piss. So did this guy I'm talking about. There were two urinals, so we wound up next to each other.


He said to me, "Paul, if you learn nothing else from me, I want you to remember this. Be consistent."


(He called me by my middle name because that's how family referred to me. I've never really liked my middle name, which is why only a select few are currently allowed to call me that. And no, it's not because of all the questions I'm asked because of it, like, "Where's George and Ringo?" And, "Were you born before John Paul II was named Pope?" I just never liked the sound of Paul Bruni. John Bruni sounds a lot better to me.)


So he kept talking about being consistent, but I zoned out because while he was talking to me and pissing, he'd turned to look at me, practically shoving his huge cock in my face. Up to that point in my life, the biggest dick I'd ever seen was my grandfather's. While he wasn't a nudist exactly, he wasn't shy to be in the house naked. But now I had this giant porn cock mere inches from me. If I sneezed, or he did, I would have been in danger of getting cock slapped. It was kind of terrifying, actually.


But I'll be goddammed if that lesson didn't stick with me. Every once in a while I say something that I think is witty and new, and someone reminds me that I said it years ago. So I'm nothing if not consistent. There was even one time I mentioned something on Twitter that I could have sworn I'd never said before, but sure enough I'd posted it verbatim almost a year previous to the day.


So what the hell? Be consistent.

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Friday, January 28, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #457: MORE CORPORATE BULLSHIT

 I went shopping for food the other day, and as the cashier rang up my shit I noticed something missing. Usually, as the cashier moves the food down the belt to the back of the station, a bagger stands there, putting everything into bags very carefully because certain items can only be bagged with other certain items.


The cashier must have noticed me noticing this. "We don't have baggers anymore," he said. "I'll take care of it when I'm done ringing you up."


And sure enough he did just that after I ran my LINK card (probably for the last time since they're taking it away from me next month). As he bagged everything he added, "When we have a spare moment they also send me out into the parking lot to get the carts."


I thought that was fucking nuts, but it's par for the course for corporate bullshit. It's something I've noticed throughout all the years of my working life. Corporations will do anything--ANYTHING--to get out of raising workers' wages. At every one of my jobs (except for the one I'm currently working), if someone quit or got fired, rather than hiring someone else to do that job, they will simply assign that work to someone else who already works there, thus adding to their workload. And do they get a pay raise?


What do you fucking think?


The Fox News mantra of "no one wants to work" is absurd. Of course no one wants to work. Almost every corporate job isn't necessary. We're supposed to be hanging out in forests, getting high, sharing art that we made ourselves, etc. A lot of jobs are necessary, and big surprise, they all have unions, hence protection from the corporate overlords.


But that's besides the point. Let's forget that for now. No one wants to work? *buzzer* Wrong. No one wants to work for a pittance. The job I do today, for example, could pay for a house and a car and all the things the American Dream stands for back in the Golden Age. Today? Not so much. Same for any of the telecom jobs I've worked.


No one wants to work? Sure. If you're hired as a cashier, all well and good. But then you have to bag, too? And corral shopping carts? And whatever else this poor bastard is going to have to do next? Are you seeing a pattern, here? It's abuse, is what it is. If corporations are people, and as far as I'm concerned THEY'RE FUCKING NOT, then they'd be in prison for what they've done.


Yesterday I posted a documentary about Noam Chomsky, and he shows in a nice flowchart how the system works. Corporations want more power, more deregulation, more rights than actual people. So they use the wealth that they should be using to give raises to their workers and give it to politicians so they can make laws that make corporations stronger and get them more money. And the cycle continues.


The crazy thing is, that's legal. Everyone knows about Shakespeare's line about lawyers, and maybe back then he was right. Today? I'd change it to lobbyists. Get rid of all those motherfuckers, and when we find out that even though they are legally forbidden from influencing politics they then do so anyway? As far as I'm concerned, that's treason and should be dealt with accordingly.


But that will never happen. We're doomed to ride this empire right into the ground. That's what happens, by the way. All empires fall in the end. America had an OK run. Could have been better. Could have been worse. But it might just collapse in our lifetimes.


And corporate bullshit will be to blame.

Thursday, January 27, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #456: I READ BANNED BOOKS


 

So the most recent news in banning books is that a school board in Tennessee voted unanimously to ban MAUS from their school. I'm sure it's not the first time MAUS has gone through this, and it certainly won't be the last, but I can't think of anyone who isn't a Nazi who would want to ban this book. But if you want to know the finer details, here is the transcript of that meeting.


Fair warning, it's a difficult read, not because everyone involved is an asshole (they are), but because no one cleaned up the transcript. I suspect they ran the recording through a program and didn't have an educated (ha!) human being go over it. There are typos and missing words, etc. But it's worth reading if you have the time (and I know some of you are insomniacs, so you probably do).


Anyway, they're trying to do their best to make it about a nude image and eight naughty words and not about the Holocaust. So they're not entirely batshit crazy. But still. If they're willing to chuck such an important book because of those things, then they're probably being disingenuous. There is talk of redacting those things, but they don't sound all that serious about it. They seem to be looking for copyright excused not to do that. And those things shouldn't be redacted, anyway.


It makes me somewhat grateful for the way I was raised. I mean, I was forbidden to experience a lot of art. If an album had the Parental Advisory sticker on it, I couldn't listen to it. I remember when I was a kid in Coconuts begging my grandmother to buy me Undertow by Tool, and she examined the cover art and tried to get me to confess that it was something dirty. She eventually bought it for me (reluctantly), but she asked a lot of questions about how it might be vulgar. And if I was twelve years and 364 days old, I was still forbidden from seeing a PG-13 movie. Renting an R rated movie from Video Magic? Don't even think about it.


Which made me glad to hang out with Dad when he had me for a weekend. He'd let me watch R movies, and if boobs showed up? He wouldn't make me close my eyes. And I hung out with friends who didn't have such domineering authority figures in their lives, so I was able to watch awesome and grotesque horror movies while sleeping over at their places.


BUT! When it came to reading? Nothing was forbidden. If Wrath James White had a book out when I was, say, eight years old I'd be allowed to read it. I could read anything I wanted, and that went a long way toward making me who I am today, and for that I'm very, very grateful. Not even my grandmother would have stopped me from reading MAUS as a kid. I didn't know about it at the time. I read it in college while working at the library. It should be noted that it was shelved in the 940's. For those unfamiliar with the Dewey Decimal System, that's a nonfiction section for history books, particularly WWII. So it's impossible to underestimate the importance of this book.


More to the point, the Bible has a lot more offensive scenes in it than MAUS does, and you never hear about an American school board so much as thinking to ban it. So if you're reading that transcript, keep that in mind. You'll note that one guy talks about being a sinner and a hypocrite, so religion is an important factor to at least his decision making.


I forgot who said it first, but when authority figures ban books, you should go out of your way to read them and find out why. It's almost never really about offensive language and sexless nudity. You'll see a very obvious pattern, and it's always about trying to prevent people to think about things in a particular way.


I didn't take a critical thinking course (fuck the word "module") until college. There are two reasons for that. The first is that I'm paying for that course, and I didn't pay for public school. The other reason is that no one wants you to think critically when you're not eighteen yet. If you did you'd realize how fucked things are. Why eighteen? Traditionally speaking, that's when they can send you off to get killed in some war, but we don't have the draft anymore. But what the hell? Tradition is all that matters to most people. We do things because our ancestors did them. I'm glad to see that attitude finally changing, but it needs to be outright killed.


Do new things. Think things through. Read banned books.






















































Don't you know the Dewey Decimal System?!


Wednesday, January 26, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #455: A REAL BUMMER

 I had to go grocery shopping Monday night. I fucking hate to do that because there are always a lot of people there, and almost all of them are inconsiderate and lost in their own worlds without a single fuck for anyone else around them. I prefer shopping Sunday mornings when most people in town are at church. But I had no choice because there was no food in the house, and I was not very motivated to go out on Sunday due to a snowstorm that left my backyard and car buried.


When I sat down in my car after I was done I realized something was off, and I saw that I'd popped a button on my beloved trench coat. One that often comes off because of the way I sit. But the difference between this time and all the others was I couldn't find the button. Fuck! What if I'd lost it in the store? Well, if that's the case, then it's gone for good. Once I leave a store I don't go back in for anything.


It bummed me out because that button was kind of special to me. Back when I was unemployed for more than a year I decided to teach myself how to do things that I ordinarily depend on others to do for me. One of those things was how to sew a button. It took me a lot longer to learn than it should have, but I got it, and I was very proud of myself. It was a symbol of my success at trying to do something I had never done before.


So yeah. A real bummer.


I resigned myself to having to find another button because I didn't want to cut a spare button off my coat. It felt too destructive. I hoped that maybe I'd lost the button at work. I doubted it because I remembered buttoning it up before leaving, but it was my last hope. No dice, of course.


But then I found the button! I don't know how it wound up in my backyard, but I found it in the snow. Now I just have to find the time to sew it back on. That's the thing. The older I get, the less time I have, it seems. That, too, is a real bummer.

Tuesday, January 25, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #454: CHUCK NORRIS


 

So Chuck Norris and I go waaaaay back. In fact he was present the night I was born. My mom had just pushed me out, but Chuck Norris wanted the honor of holding me first, so the doctor passed me into his arms. He brushed placenta out of my already full head of hair. "It's good to meet you, John Paul Bruni. I've been waiting for this moment to arrive. It's time for me to pass on the torch. You are now the greatest man to ever live. When you do push ups, the earth will just move up and down. You will be able to divide by zero. When the boogeyman goes to sleep at night, he'll check the close for you."


Little baby me looked him in the eyes. "I cannot accept this honor," I told him. "I have to earn it."


Chuck Norris smiled and nodded. "I respect the hell out of that. You will be even stronger than me, John Paul Bruni. May I call you sir?"


A serene feeling came over me. "Yes, Chuck Norris, you may."


So why have I told you this obviously phony story? Well, I told a joke recently that Chuck Norris will do what Meat Loaf wouldn't do for love. It's usually pretty obvious when I'm joking, but some jokes call for deadpan delivery, and this was one of them. When I do that, people around me take me seriously to the point where they ask me to explain myself. I don't know why people do that, but they do.


This person said, "How do you know that?"


So I crafted this story on the spot in the same deadpan I used when telling the joke. None of it fazed him. He waited patiently for me to finish, and then he said, "I don't believe you."


I almost sighed myself to death.

Monday, January 24, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #453: PICKING AT A STAR WAR


 

[Heh. Outlaw Vern likes to call individual Star Wars movies as a Star War, and as a collective he calls them Star Warses. I like that, so I've adopted that policy.]


I'm not one to agree with everyone, but in a few instances they are right. Case in point: The Empire Strikes Back is the best of all the Star Warses. A friend of mine teaches guitar, and one of his students (I think) thinks this film is not just the best of them but is also a perfect movie. I don't like the term "perfect movie." None of them are perfect. But this kid's pretty adamant to the point where every objection my friend came up with was shot down. So he asked me if I thought of anything that could disprove the kid's theory, I should tell him. That was months ago, and the only thing I could think of was Darth Vader constantly calling Luke "Skywalker." Imagine if I had a son and called him Bruni all the time. It wouldn't make sense, right? An argument could be made that he doesn't want anyone to know his real identity, but I call bullshit on that. The Emperor, of all people, knows Vader is Anakin Skywalker, and when the two of them are talking, Vader keeps referring to Luke as Skywalker. He doesn't need to hide anything from Palpatine. Why are they talking about Luke like this?


Well, I recently got Disney+ so I could take a month and burn through all the Star Wars and Marvel stuff and then cancel before I have to pay for another month. I succeeded at this (except for The Book of Boba Fett, so I'll probably have to pay for that extra month while the rest of the show plays out), but yesterday, while trying to get up the nerve to go outside and brush my car off, I decided, fuck it. I haven't seen Empire in a while. And I'll pay extra attention to any flaws that might come up. I considered it an interesting intellectual exercise, so you all might be curious to see how things went. This is what I found:


-When the wampa captures Luke on Hoth, how the fuck did it get him to hang upside down? Did it melt his boots into the snow? How? And why doesn't Luke just slip out of his boots to escape?


-Why does Obi-Wan pick that moment to contact Luke? He could have told him about Yoda anytime. Why wait until Luke felt like shit and was on the brink of passing out?


--Why did Han's tauntaun die of cold exposure? Hoth is its home. It should be used to the weather.


--This one irritates me the most. According to the crawl, Luke is in charge of the rebellion on Hoth, but there isn't a single indication of his leadership there. He strikes me as just another freedom fighter who has a few extra tricks up his sleeve. Who should have been listed as the leader in the crawl? Leia, because she's clearly the one in charge. I suspect I know why they did it that way, and you probably have the same suspicion.


--When the Falcon is being pursued by the Empire and can't go to hyperdrive, both Han and Chewy leave the cockpit for repairs. That doesn't fucking make sense, for one, but for another, how did the TIE fighters not kill them in that moment? Is Leia (or Threepio for that matter) an expert pilot? Granted, everyone in the Star Warses is apparently a pilot, so maybe she is, too. Maybe I'm wrong about this one.


--If Lord Vader needs an update on the Falcon from the admiral, maybe he's not as strong with the Force as he thinks he is.


Your thoughts? Objections? Suggestions?

Friday, January 21, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #452: THE BEST NIGHT OF SLEEP I'VE EVER GOTTEN

 First off, I want to say that you should not try this at home (or anywhere else for that matter). It worked very, very well for me, but I have a high substance tolerance. And I've only been able to do this once, anyway. So yeah. Keep that in mind.


I've never been very good at sleeping. I'm a lifelong insomniac who discovered that alcohol can help me get to sleep, so I did that for years. The thing is, it was rarely a rewarding sleep. I still felt miserable and tired the next day. But at least I lost consciousness.


Cannabis helps quite a bit. I'm still not fully rested the next day, but it works better than the booze did.


So this happened the last time I was in the hospital for an overnight stay. It's impossible to sleep in a hospital, by the way. Nurses and techs disturb yours sleep constantly to the point where you're lucky if you can close your eyes for longer than a half an hour. It's even worse if they have a blood pressure cuff on your arm at all times.


But this was the first time since starting my cannabis habit that I was in the hospital for an overnight stay, so I came prepared. I wanted to make sure that I would sleep through anything and everything, including when the blood tech visits at the crack of dawn to exsanguinate me.


So here's what I did. I timed it perfectly. About an hour before I wanted to go to bed, I popped an edible, then watched some TV while waiting for it to kick in. An hour after that, I took a few Unisom and another edible, got into bed and hit the button for the nurse. I had to time it right, or I wouldn't get what I wanted, which was my next dose of morphine, because I was in constant pain from my guts. Too soon, and I wouldn't get it. Too late, and I might pass out and not get that optimal night of sleep.


The nurse arrived and gave me my dose, and I closed my eyes. I slept wonderfully! It was so amazing, it's one of my favorite things I've ever done. And yes, I slept through the blood tech and a bunch of other nurse visits. I knew the blood tech had visited because I had a new bandage on the inside of my elbow when I didn't have one the night before.


Holy shit, that was great. I think about that night of sleep often, wishing I could replicate it on my own. I've never felt so fresh in my entire life as I did the next morning.


So yeah. The next time I go to the hospital, I expect I'll have yet another perfect night of sleep. If not for the whole hospital part, I might actually look forward to it.

Thursday, January 20, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #451: LANDLORDS


 

It's not often that I'm on the same page as my stepfather. Longtime readers and close friends know how that relationship worked out, and it was not good. But here's one that stuck with me over the years. I didn't realize what it meant at the time, but as I grew older, I got it. And now, I get it, like, a lot.


When I was a kid he would grumble all the time about our landlord. He called him all sorts of names when the landlord wasn't around. My stepfather hated that man with every fiber of his being, and I didn't get why because I didn't understand the dynamic of that relationship. I didn't get it until I got older and understood what a landlord was.


And yeah, I hate those sons of bitches. They were a necessary evil, though, until perhaps now.


A friend of mind told me recently that he and his wife have to move from their excellent apartment in Lisle (it's a beautiful place) because their landlord recently jacked up the rent to an insane amount of money. My friend likened it to a mortgage payment instead of monthly rent. And he's not the only one. All over this country everyone is getting fucked over by their landlords. It's out of control. And people wonder why a lot of folks have to move back in with their parents.


I've watched the cost of rent in my corner of the Chicagoland area rise steadily over the years, but for some reason NOW is when they're really going fucking crazy. How do they expect people to be able to live there? In the middle of a plague? When the cost of living keeps rising but wages remain the same? I'm familiar with the concept. Remember, I'm a writer, and our per word payment has not increased for a hundred years. I'm pretty sure back then they didn't even have a minimum wage. Now we do, and it's piddling. It's just enough for people to buy drugs to help them forget how miserable their lives are.


And I get that it's a complicated thing. The landlords have shit to pay for, too, but holy fuck, this is . . . I was about to say highway robbery, but even that's pretty tame compared to the cost of rent these days. And yeah, inflation. I know. And I can even pinpoint why we're suffering from inflation: some genius decided to take us off the gold and silver standard. Because they got greedy. Back then there was a limited supply of money. Now there isn't because monetary value is an imaginary thing. A dollar bill is worth a dollar because the US government says it is. It doesn't even have a gold and silver backing like it used to.


Perhaps the answer is a finite amount of money. Granted, that would cause all sorts of problems on its own, because who do you think would end up with that finite supply? But I do find joy in one thing: all they can do is hoard it until it isn't even worth anything, because who the fuck will be buying shit when ordinary people don't have money? Maybe the super rich can pass it back and forth to each other, but what good is that, in the long run?


Wow. I didn't mean to launch off on that tirade. All I meant to say is landlords can suck my dick.










































I hope no one is wondering why there is a picture of Joe Pesci at the top of this column.

Wednesday, January 19, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #450: HORRIBLE THOUGHTS FROM MY HEAD #1,569,969

 Every once in a while my mind comes up with a horrible idea that I should never unleash into the world . . . and then I unleash it into the world, usually in the form of fiction. But there are some horrible thoughts that I think twice about. For example, "Butt Club." As I wrote that one, I thought about the book I was paying homage to/parodying/ripping off. So many people took that book and the subsequent movie the wrong way and actually started creating Fight Clubs. What if I inadvertently started a bunch of people creating Butt Clubs? I know I have nowhere near the reach of Chuck Palahniuk, but at the same time, he didn't either, not when Fight Club first came out.


(And I almost did start a Butt Club at a bizarro live reading. Thankfully everyone seemed to be in the joke. I had some doubts about a couple of people, but to the best of my knowledge, no one has created a Butt Club. Also, if you want to read that story, you can find it in TALES OF UNSPEAKABLE TASTE.)


So I thought of a terrorist attack that would absolutely work and change our way of life forever. And I'm not shy about sharing it here because Palahniuk wrote another book in which he described a terrorist act that would 100% work even if you knew all about it. If you haven't read Pygmy, give it a shot and you'll see. Brian K. Vaughan also came up with a great idea for one in The Private Eye, which is definitely worth the read. The terrorist attack in that one isn't a spoiler. It's background for the story he wanted to tell, so I'll describe it here. In his graphic novel someone released everyone's search history to the world so no one could possibly have a secret from anyone ever. Also, who can kink shame when everyone knows what everyone else is into? In the book everyone has just decided to declare a worldwide amnesty and to never discuss it ever again, but think about what would happen if someone did that in reality?


So my idea is, what would happen if someone hacked into everyone's social media and the texts on their phones and made public everyone's private messages. Do you want to know what someone really thinks of you? Who among your friends list are closet Nazis? Who is sending unsolicited dick pics or revenge porn or creep shots? What happens when the people you talk about behind their backs find out about those things you're saying? My policy is to never say something to someone I wouldn't say to their face, but I'm all too aware that I'm in the minority on that thought.


What happens when no one really likes anyone else, and no one can trust anyone?


It's not too far fetched that something like that could happen. Considering all the hacks you hear about, all the personal information stolen, all the purloined identities, all it takes is a hacker ruthless and heartless enough to do it.


Hopefully no one will do it. But you never know.

Tuesday, January 18, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #449: GOT SHEMP?


 

So back in March of 2020, when I'd lost the plot in addition to many other things, including my job, I'd decided I wasn't going to get a haircut ever again. My lifelong barber had just died, and I didn't feel like finding a new barber. Usually I stop shaving and getting haircuts on Halloween, and I don't resume these things until late March or early April. It's mostly to have extra hair covering me during the winter.


But I changed my ways. My hair got so long I needed to tie it back in a ponytail, and my beard went down to my mid-chest. And in March 2021 I got a new job, so I figured maybe showing up looking like a crackhead might not be the best look. I trimmed the beard down so it looked reasonable (and pretty handsome, if I don't say so myself), but I had to figure out what I was going to do with my hair. Fuck it. I was 42, and I still had a full head of hair. Why not have some fun with it? I decided I was either going to get a Mohawk or get the Joe Miller from the first season of The Expanse.


Well, no middle-aged fat guy looks good in a Mohawk, so I decided to do the Miller. It didn't come out like I thought, but it turned out pretty nice. But then it kept growing and growing, and I had a new goal: I'm going to get the Shemp.


Shemp's hair doesn't look very special. In fact, it looks pretty short if you're not paying attention. But if he catches a particularly bad blow to the face, or he leans forward too far, you see that his hair is actually very long. It's because the hair at the front up top goes all the way to his neckline in the back. It's deceptive and looks pretty cool. For the past few months, I've had the Shemp, and I've been happy with it.


But now it's winter again, so I let my hair keep going. And now that I've had long hair for years, I'm getting kind of tired of it. I think when spring rolls around I'm going to get it sheared off so it's as short as I usually liked to get it.


I'm keeping the beard, though. Goddam, I look sexy with that beard.

Monday, January 17, 2022

GOODNIGHT, FUCKERS #448: FUCK THE SICKNESS

 It's been a while since I got sick. And by getting sick, I mean an actual cold or the flu or something that lasts more than a day of crud. I used to get sick once every year for about a week or so (and then the gunk would stay with me for a couple more weeks), and it was usually around the first week of February. Then my body stopped getting sick a few years back. I suspect it was because my organs started failing me around then, and I guess my body took some kind of pity on me because it must have decided that being in and out of the ER for that kind of thing was probably enough misery for me to deal with.


But this motherfucker swept in on me on January 3, and it didn't let go of me fully until this morning. It was fucking merciless. I couldn't stand up without feeling woozy. Every night one nostril would close up on me until I turned on my other side, and I'd get a few seconds of relief until the other nostril closed instead. I hacked and coughed and gagged. And then, just when I thought I was in the clear, the diarrhea showed up and had me going back and forth to the bathroom.


Holy fuck, this one was rough. With the specter of Covid hanging over us all, I naturally got paranoid about having it. I could still taste and smell things, so I suspected it wasn't it, but I started looking around for places I could get tested without standing outside in the freezing cold for more than a half an hour. Naturally, there was nowhere I could go for that. And I can barely stand up for ten minutes, what with the bad leg and all, so going elsewhere wasn't an option.


(Here's a tip if you find yourself in such a situation and you have good insurance. Go to the ER sick as a dog, and maybe exaggerate your symptoms a little. You'll get tested. Fair warning, though: if you test positive, they might not let you leave to self quarantine at home, which is what I did.)


I poured all sorts of shit into me. All the Quils I could get my hands on. Cannabis. Even Unisom for when I was trying to sleep, which was almost all the time. And I got desperate enough to see if I could drink the sick away. If you catch it early enough, that usually works, but I was already balls deep into this illness and tried it anyway. No dice.


And I drank a ton of Tang. That was my only real pleasure at the time. Because when I'm sick I can't write or read or even jerk off. All I can do is watch TV, so I did a lot of that while waiting to pass out from medications.


But goddammit, it's done with. Except the gunk. I'll have the snot dribblies for another week or so, but that's not so bad, all things considered. I feel strong enough to resume my usual daily rituals. I got some writing done, some reading. Meditation and some upper body exercises. So things are looking much better now.


Welcome to 2022. Hopefully it's not time to get familiar with cannibalism. Yet.